Worst day ever, week actually...

Monday I had my 10 week appointment. First time actually meeting doc, and I brought my 4 year old w/ as she is so excited about being big sister.

Doc started in on all the tests recommended for my age (35 next week) and started going over the different ones. I interrupted and asked if I was pregnant as I am just not feeing it. No morning sickness, no heartburn, nothing really. She did a vaginal ultrasound and suspected a miscarriage if my dates were correct. My dates are absolutely correct. She then ordered a level 2 ultrasound at a different location and I was to go there Tuesday. Sent me off to get some bloodwork to check my levels.

My husband missed work and we went Tuesday morning. At first the u/s tech gave me some hope when she said the sac only measures at 7 weeks, and to come back next week. I said my doc is suspecting a miscarriage and I really can't wait. I asked if it was possible that the sac just stopped growing as by my dates I should be at 10 weeks. She couldn't answer of course as she is not a doc. She then did vaginal u/s and was measuring something in sac, but I couldn't really see anything and could not see anything at all on docs original vaginal u/s. The tech was then very quiet and didn't say anything. She left for about 10 minutes, came back and said the doc will get w/ me w/ results. Didn't sound too encouraging.

Wednesday morning had to get 2nd round of bloodwork to see if my hcg levels increased like they needed to or decreased indicating miscarriage. They had decreased and the doc called me w/ the news. I went ahead and scheduled D/C for Thursday morning. That night I freaked out w/ 2nd thoughts, and called the on call nurses throuhg docs office. The sweet nurse assured me I didn't have to do it, but based on all the results she knows the doc would not suggest this w/o going over everything very carefully and would order more testing if she thought there was any chance.

Thursday morning, we head to the hospital and talk to the doc again. Told her about my freakout and she said I could definitely wait if I wanted to but w/ the declining numbers and the lab u/s it is a miscarriage as the lab u/s showed fetal demise at 6 weeks. I went ahead w/ procedure and am feeling ok, physically that is.

I have never been thru this before and it is awful. I had such an easy, wonderful pregnancy w/ my dd who is 4, I just assumed this one would be too.

The doc says I can try again immediately after getting a period, and I will. I am defintely not telling people until after the 1st trimester if there is a next time. Other than the miscarriage itself, this has been the hardest pert, telling all my close friends and family about this.

My stepson that lives w/ us knows about it, he is 13. Haven't decided how or even if we are going to tell dd. She is only 4, and as long as I get pregnant right away, she won't know the difference in 9 months or 12 months really. I don't know though. My husband doesn't want to tell her at all, thinks she is too young and doesn't need to know. Any thoughts or personal expreiences on this?

worst week ever!!!!

Monday I had my 10 week appointment. First time actually meeting doc, and I brought Ry as she is so excited about being big sister.

Doc started in on all the tests recommended for age and started going over the different ones. I interrupted and asked if I was pregnant as I am just not feeling it. No morning sickness, no heartburn, nothing really. She did a vaginal ultrasound and suspected a miscarriage if my dates were correct. My dates are absolutely correct. She then ordered a level 2 ultrasound at a different location and I was to go there Tuesday. Sent me off to get some blood work to check my levels.

My husband missed work and we went Tuesday morning. At first the u/s tech gave me some hope when she said the sac only measures at 7 weeks, and to come back next week. I said my doc is suspecting a miscarriage and I really can't wait. I asked if it was possible that the sac just stopped growing as by my dates I should be at 10 weeks. She couldn't answer of course as she is not a doc. She then did vaginal u/s and was measuring something in sac, but I couldn't really see anything and could not see anything at all on docs orig vaginal u/s. The tech was then very quiet and didn't say anything. She left for about 10 minutes, came back and said the doc will get w/ me w/ results. Didn't sound too encouraging.

Wednesday morning had to get 2ND round of blood work to see if my hcg levels increased like they needed to or decreased indicating miscarriage. They had decreased and the doc called me w/ the news. I went ahead and scheduled D/C for Thursday morning. That night I freaked out w/ 2ND thoughts, and called the on call nurses through docs office. The sweet nurse assured me I didn't have to do it, but based on all the results she knows the doc would not suggest this w/o going over everything very carefully and would order more testing if she thought there was any chance.

Thursday morning, we head to the hospital and talk to the doc again. Told her about my freak out and she said I could definitely wait if I wanted to but w/ the declining numbers and the lab u/s it is a miscarriage as the lab u/s showed fetal demise at 6 weeks. I went ahead w/ procedure and am feeling OK, physically that is.

I have never been thru this before and it is awful. I had such an easy, wonderful pregnancy w/ daughter who is 4, I just assumed this one would be too.

The doc says I can try again immediately after getting a period, and I will. I am definitely not telling people until after the 1st trimester if there is a next time. Other than the miscarriage itself, this has been the hardest pert, telling all my close friends and family about this.

Our son knows about it, he is 13. Haven't decided how or even if we are going to tell Ry. She is only 4, and as long as I get pregnant right away, she won't know the difference in 9 months or 12 months really. I don't know though. My husband doesn't want to tell her at all, thinks she is too young and doesn't need to know.

I love you all and thanks your for all your prayers and support this week, I appreciate it so much!!!

We're having a baby!!

The 3 of you that ever read this, already know that we are having a baby!!!

It is due Januray 25, 2008. We don't know if it will be a boy or a girl, and may not find out like last time.

That's about all.

Scotland was great. My job still sucks. I was actually going to quit and take about 6 months off, living off my savings/retirement when I found out I was pregnant. That's life!

Mr. H starts a new job Monday. That will be nice. 2 of my best friends moved to Florida, they suck! I'll see them in August for the wedding and that will be great. 2 frickin' pregos unable to drink in the Florida heat and humidity.

Greetings from Scotland

I am here! It is fabulous. It is raining everyday. More like a constant drizzle like Seattle. It is so beautiful!

Been out in the countryside, but going to Edinburgh today, so that will be nice.

Miss my family! Miss you all. I'll be home Friday. It is 11am here, so you are all sleeping as it is about 3am in Phoenix. Phillip may be up I guess.

Love you all!

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Same old, same old

Hate my job, but I interviewed for a new job today. I hate interviews, but I think it went ok. It was only the first interview, they'll pass onto the hiring manager w/ thier feedback and I may get called back for a 2nd interview. Won't probably know for a couple weeks, which would actually be great, because then my current job won't take my Scotland trip away.

I leave for Scotland on the 22nd. Very exciting. I get to try Falconry while I am there. I don't know anything else about the trip yet.

We had a mostly nice Easter gathering here. The usual fighting between Mr. H and his sister. Diva wasn't feeling well, which sucked, but she did not ruin Easter!!!!

Diva and family were the first to depart and then Mr. H told his sister to go home too. We chatted w/ my mother in law until about midnight, then watched Sopranos w/ Movieman. I then tried to stay awake long enough to watch Entourage w/ Movieman, but failed miserably. It must have been all those wine coolers The Baron made me drink so he wasn't drinking alone.

Mr. H is on his 2nd week of unemployment, but I am not stressing yet. He's still getting paid for a few weeks. Last week was his slack off week and tomorow he will go get set up w/ Manpower. They have temp jobs as well as full time permanent jobs.

Oh we got to go on a date last Friday - thanks again to Diva and family for watching the Ryster so we could go out to eat. It was nice!

That's all I have, love you!

updates

Still love the new ride! It rocks!

Disneyland was great!

Got to buy pants another size smaller!

Oh and just one more thing.....


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Stuff

This is a funny website. http://chucknorrisfacts.com/ I think I have only seen 1 Chuck Norris movie in my life, but he was pretty bad ass in it.

Tomorrow we go to get our eyes sliced and diced. HA HA. Been hearing so many things, all wonderful, except for the smell of your burning eyes from the laser, and the fact that I may or may not get my valium before surgery. I don't care about after the fact, I can sleep anytime. I want the drugs before, as I am terrified.

Here is a before pic of Phillip and I taken wednesday night w/ our glasses, by this time tomorrow we will be eyeglass free. I will post after pics once I am able to see, unless of course I go blind in which case I will not be posting anymore.

Happy New Year!

Yeah, so I am only 20 days late on this post. I'm a busy girl, w/ all my napping, and tv show watching. I just downloaded the New Years pics today. Here we all are ringing in the New Year - unfortunately Phillip had to work that night as usual.



It was a very quiet, uneventful night, the kids had a great time.



As you should know by reading Phillips novel on his blog we are going together on Friday to get Lasik eye surgery. We are terrified but very excited to see w/o our glasses/contacts. Mr. H took the day off to take us both and he will probably go watch a movie while we are getting it done. Although the surgery is only about 7 minutes, they'll be rechecking our eyes again w/ the fancy expensive computer to make sure all the readings or whatever stuff is good to go, so the whole thing will take a few hours. I think we were there for about 4 hours just for our initial consultation. I am so excited Phillip was able to get credit to get it done. He is so ugly in his glasses! KIDDING! I just had to throw that in there for his viewing pleasure.



Soccer was cancelled today due to the weather, which is good since Ry is sick anyway. Double good since it was our turn for snacks and Mr. H was going to have to run snacks/drinks there anyway even though Ry wasn't going to play.



We are working on getting the house refinanced right now and it isn't fun. Hoping to combine our 1st and 2nd mortgage w/1 lower payment and still get some cash out now for newer vehicles for both of us, oh and to pay Phillip back all the money I owe him. I think I'll tell him my Mom died and I need the money for a ticket, that's the story he told his cousin, and he didn't have to pay her back. Sorry man, couldn't help myself. :)



That's about it for now. War is coming up in less than a month and the guys are supposed to get together today and do some man sewing for Baron Von Stupid Pants, but he must be too busy SABOD right now, as they aren't here yet.



I think I'll go nap now.

Christmas update

Christmas was great! My Mom is here til Saturday. We got a kick ass vaccum from my Dad and Stepmom. A new camera from Mom.

New cell phones for us, although Mr. H's needs to be sent back already. I got this one, and he got this one. My best friend was awesome to us as usual, and still wants to do more.

The kids got spoiled of course, that's half the fun.

I have been sick w/ the crud again, but I only have to work tomorrow for 1/2 day and that is it. We will have the birthday party here on Friday for Steph. Now to just get the house cleaned before then.

Grama and Rylee are baking cookies right now and watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

We never did Zoo Lights, but may go Thursday night.

That's about it for now.

Oh just one more thing, by far the best Christmas present ever although it would have been much better if I had witnessed, was one of my Moms stepsons almost being tasered by the cops
because he was belligerent and they had the wrong kid. Karma's a bitch!

RIP Sandy Elaine Lett Duke Owen

Phillips Momma did pass away this morning. She held on long enough for him to get there and be w/ her and talk to her, but finally gave up her fight this morning at 319am.

Phillip is still in Kansas and am not sure of his return at this time.

Love you Philly!

My brother from another Mother (and Father)

This is mainly for Brig, who doesn't yet know - Phillip will not even see this until he returns to Phoenix. Phillips Mom and step dad were in a car accident yesterday. The prognosis for Sandy is not good. We were up til 3am this morning talking and everytime he called the hospital there was no change, she is still hanging in there, but they can't stop the bleeding and had already given her 12 units of blood. Her hip is broken and swelling as well. Jeff (her husband) and Phillip have decided she will be DNR and no life support. This is very hard for my best friend, and any prayers for him and his Mom would be great. I took him to the airport this morning to catch an 11am flight to Wichita, he should arrive around 520pm and head straight to the hospital. I will update as I know more.

Phillip-
I really wish I could be there with you right now to help you through whatever happens. I know I was trying to keep everything light and not sad last night. I know for all your Mom's faults, she is still your Mother and it would be a terrible loss to you even though it hadn't yet sunk in. I love you my friend and will do whatever I can to help you.

My Italy pics

I only took almost 200 photos......

Ciao baby

I am off to Bologna tomorrow morning. Some 15 hours later I will arrive. 2 full days there and then some 15 hours home. I'll talk w/ you all Friday. If you must reach me, text me, as calling me is much more expensive, even to check my voice mail.

Love you!

Ciao!

Found out some more Italy info.

-We are going to tour a Lamborghini Factory

-We are going to dine w/ royalty in her Palais - some countess who throws parties for other royalty

-touring around to some different vineyards

-taking a class in a local cafe on making pasta and tortellini

November is supposed to be the rainiest month, so hopefully it will be ok.

Update

Week 5 of my weight management class and I have lost 19 pounds so far.

I have been cheating this week though as we had hotels and airlines in all week at work w/ food, and I can't pass up free food.

The lady from Air France was in, and I asked if she was going w/ us to Bologna, and she is. She told me that there will only be 4 of us flying out of LA on Air France. What that means to me is a really good chance of flying in Business Class, since there are only 4 of us and we are flying w/ the Air France representative. No guarantees of course, and I don't want to get too excited, but it sure would beat flying in coach!

I still need to check the weather and start making lists of what I should pack. Need to get that credit card paid down so I have plenty of spending money to get souvenirs, everything else is paid for.

In 1 month I will be in Italy. Soon, they should start coming out w/ trips for next year, don't know how soon I'll sign up for one again. It will have to be one I really want.

Monday, Monday

Hey butt cheeks what's up? Nothing much here. Had the oh so fun birthday party for my nephew on Saturday. Never again!

Today, Rylee and I were supposed to go to The Little Gym for a trial class, but she actually slept past 8am, and I didn't set an alarm, since she hasn't been sleeping past 8am. She woke up at 930, so we missed the class.

We watched Willy Wonka in my bed. Ok, she watched, I napped.

We went to lunch w/ Uncle Philip at Mimi's, and now it is nap time for her.

I go to chiro today, then Curves, then home to hang w/ Mary and Phillip if he gets up before he goes to work.

Thought for the day

Friends..

Friends are like butt cheeks.
Shit might separate them,
But they always come back together.

Curves - Month 2

Woo hoo! I lost 3 1/2 pounds this month. Nothing much, but better than nothing at all.

Loss for this month......

I lost 0 inches in the bust (total loss .75 inches)
I lost 1.50 inches in the waist (total loss 1.75 inches)
I lost 1.25 inches in the abdomen (total loss 1.75 inches)
I lost 1 inch in the thighs (total loss 2 inches)
I lost .5 inches in the arms (total loss 2.5 inches)

I lost .75 inches in the bustI lost .25 inches in the waistI lost .50 inches in the abdomenI lost 1 inch in the thighsI lost 2 inches in the armsand my total body fat has gone down .80%Total inches lost of 4.5

My total body fat didn't change, but she said I needed to be hydrated w/ water and not Diet Coke for the machine to get accurate reading.


Total inches lost of 8.75 for both months