Wednesday, June 25, 2008

1 year later

I thought of you and closed my eyes

And prayed to God today.

I asked what makes a Mother

And I know I heard him say.

A Mother has a baby

This we know is true.

But God can you be a Mother

When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can He replied

With confidence in His voice

I give many women babies

When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime

And others for a day.

And some I send to feel your womb

But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this, God

I want my baby here

He took a breath and cleared His throat

And then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you

What your child is doing today.

If you could see your child smile

With other children and say

"We go to earth and learn our lessons

Of love and life and fear.

My Mommy loved me oh so much

I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom

Who had so much love for me

I learned my lesson very quickly

My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much

But I visit her each day.

When she goes to sleep

On her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek

And whisper in her ear

"Mommy don't be sad today

I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one

Your children are OK

Your babies are here in My home

And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with me

Until your lesson is through

And on the day that you come home

They'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother

It's the feeling in your heart.

It's the love you had so much of

Right from the very start.

-Jennifer Wasik

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Weekend update

Today we took the Saturn in to have the AC checked, it blows cold, but not cold enough and never truly cools down when it is HOT out. That is done, so it better work great tomorrow. I don't know how it works, because it is still sitting at Saturn, hopefully a gate will be open and Mr. H can pick it up on his way home tonight.

Tonight it is just me and the kids as Daddy is at dorky Anime convention. Tomorrow we are all going to Waterworld thanks to the cheap Season Pass that costs as much as 2 entries into the park. I cannot believe I am taking my fat pregnant ass to a water park, but I know Ry will love it so that is why I am doing it.

Have so much to do around this house to make it more livable. Have laundry piled to my knees (slight exaggeration) but I just don't ever care to do it, until I run out of underwear or something else I need. Have to get the girls room done and quick. We need to prep the ceiling and get painted this next weekend hopefully, so we can get all the other finishing touches done to it during the week when Grama is here sewing everything. Have to fit a baby shower and pedicures in there somewhere too. Must work on my room so the baby even has a place to sleep, although my dresser drawers are empty, I could always stick her in one of those. The playroom is a disaster zone and just looks like a toystore exploded, there isn't even room to play. Need to get that cleared out and toys all sorted, so we can set up a baby area w/ all the baby toys too, not that she'll be in there for awhile, but still. Waiting on new gate to block off the whole playroom to keep the dogs and someday crawling baby out of there.

I can't wait to be off work for 3 months, not that I work a whole lot anyway, but it is going to be so nice to be off for 12 straight weeks and actually get a paycheck for the whole time. I'm not going to know what to do w/ all the money. Oh yeah, pay neglected bills, aw well.

Ok, these are from real camera and taken by the boy so cannot say it is because they were taken by a short person, MY BELLY IS HUGE!!!!!! Just you wait, you'll see soon enough.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

My kids

My kids after Taylors graduation from 8th grade.

Monday, June 09, 2008

My princess and other stuff

Not my daughter, but my puppy. Little miss Zoey will ONLY go potty in the shade, if you stick her in the sun, she will not even walk to a shady spot in the grass, she will walk back under our patio and try to go on the rug. If you place her in a shady spot in the grass, no problem. SPOILED!!!

I am up to drop off Ry at her summer program. While she is there for 3 hours, I am going to Petsmart to get more puppy pee training pads for inside, go to Target to look at new strollers and other baby stuff and try to fit a pedicure in there as well before picking her up at noon.

We'll have to hit Sams Club after school and then grab some lunch. Hopefully a nap and tehn swimming later on when Mr. H gets here w/ her cousin after work.

What an exciting day!

Thursday, June 05, 2008

I am addicted...

To playing Texas Hold 'Em on Myspace. Seriously every day.