1 year later

I thought of you and closed my eyes

And prayed to God today.

I asked what makes a Mother

And I know I heard him say.

A Mother has a baby

This we know is true.

But God can you be a Mother

When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can He replied

With confidence in His voice

I give many women babies

When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime

And others for a day.

And some I send to feel your womb

But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this, God

I want my baby here

He took a breath and cleared His throat

And then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you

What your child is doing today.

If you could see your child smile

With other children and say

"We go to earth and learn our lessons

Of love and life and fear.

My Mommy loved me oh so much

I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom

Who had so much love for me

I learned my lesson very quickly

My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much

But I visit her each day.

When she goes to sleep

On her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek

And whisper in her ear

"Mommy don't be sad today

I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one

Your children are OK

Your babies are here in My home

And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with me

Until your lesson is through

And on the day that you come home

They'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother

It's the feeling in your heart.

It's the love you had so much of

Right from the very start.

-Jennifer Wasik

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Weekend update

Today we took the Saturn in to have the AC checked, it blows cold, but not cold enough and never truly cools down when it is HOT out. That is done, so it better work great tomorrow. I don't know how it works, because it is still sitting at Saturn, hopefully a gate will be open and Mr. H can pick it up on his way home tonight.

Tonight it is just me and the kids as Daddy is at dorky Anime convention. Tomorrow we are all going to Waterworld thanks to the cheap Season Pass that costs as much as 2 entries into the park. I cannot believe I am taking my fat pregnant ass to a water park, but I know Ry will love it so that is why I am doing it.

Have so much to do around this house to make it more livable. Have laundry piled to my knees (slight exaggeration) but I just don't ever care to do it, until I run out of underwear or something else I need. Have to get the girls room done and quick. We need to prep the ceiling and get painted this next weekend hopefully, so we can get all the other finishing touches done to it during the week when Grama is here sewing everything. Have to fit a baby shower and pedicures in there somewhere too. Must work on my room so the baby even has a place to sleep, although my dresser drawers are empty, I could always stick her in one of those. The playroom is a disaster zone and just looks like a toystore exploded, there isn't even room to play. Need to get that cleared out and toys all sorted, so we can set up a baby area w/ all the baby toys too, not that she'll be in there for awhile, but still. Waiting on new gate to block off the whole playroom to keep the dogs and someday crawling baby out of there.

I can't wait to be off work for 3 months, not that I work a whole lot anyway, but it is going to be so nice to be off for 12 straight weeks and actually get a paycheck for the whole time. I'm not going to know what to do w/ all the money. Oh yeah, pay neglected bills, aw well.

Ok, these are from real camera and taken by the boy so cannot say it is because they were taken by a short person, MY BELLY IS HUGE!!!!!! Just you wait, you'll see soon enough.

My kids

My kids after Taylors graduation from 8th grade.

My princess and other stuff

Not my daughter, but my puppy. Little miss Zoey will ONLY go potty in the shade, if you stick her in the sun, she will not even walk to a shady spot in the grass, she will walk back under our patio and try to go on the rug. If you place her in a shady spot in the grass, no problem. SPOILED!!!

I am up to drop off Ry at her summer program. While she is there for 3 hours, I am going to Petsmart to get more puppy pee training pads for inside, go to Target to look at new strollers and other baby stuff and try to fit a pedicure in there as well before picking her up at noon.

We'll have to hit Sams Club after school and then grab some lunch. Hopefully a nap and tehn swimming later on when Mr. H gets here w/ her cousin after work.

What an exciting day!

I am addicted...

To playing Texas Hold 'Em on Myspace. Seriously every day.

Meet Zoey*

*name still under consideration - Mr. H says no, but thats what me and Ry keep calling her.


Crappy cell phone pics....

We got her today, she is 7 weeks old and Phillip got one of her brothers. They are Queensland Heeler/American Bulldog mix. She is so mellow and sweet.

The tooth is gone

Amazingly enough the tooth did get pulled Friday morning by the oral surgeon. It took all of 5 minutes total including stitching, which makes me even more annoyed - as if that is possible- with my original dentist office.

Of course, had I not been desperate to get tooth taken care of this was so not an Oral Surgeon I would have chosen. Old office, in not so great neighborhood, old man that was shaky. LOL Oh well the tooth is gone and I am happy now. He was even nice enough to call me first thing this morning to see if everything was ok.

I was in alot of pain yesterday but today is better. We went to a bbq at a friends house today and I spent most of the time resting on the couch.

That is about it for now.

Goodnight!

MOTHERF***ING DENTIST

I am soooooooo pissed. Our origInal dentist has left the practice and they have all these new dentists. The chick at the desk was supposed to show the Friday dentist my xray and make sure he was fine doing it, since the one that was there on Wednesday wasn't comfortable pulling my tooth. She never called to tell me there was any problem so I rushed to the fucking dentist, he looks at tooth, looks at xray again and says oh yeah, I am not comfortable doing this either I'm going to have to send you to specialist to have it pulled. I bitched I took the whole day off to get it done and he tells me I can have a free day off now. Stupid prick, I don't want a free day off I want my tooth pulled. Get back up to the front am ready to just leave w/o referral to specialist and start over somewhere else, but I wait and ask the girl what happened thought she was going to call me if there was a problem, she doesn't know why he won't do it now and she had showed him this morning and he was fine. Suppposedly the dentist that was there on Thursday didn't have a problem w/ pulling it either so I don't know why they didn't just make me an appointment for her to do it, but fuck it, I don't care, I'm done w/ that place anyway. I get to take another whole day off and go to the oral surgeon/specialist next Friday. Then I'll be finding a new dentist after baby girl is born. Plus, I have to call the endodontist on Monday that was supposed to do root canal anyway, I think my gum behind the tooth is all infected now, it just sucks.

Vintage Photos

We got these taken back in March, but didn't get the actual photos until April. DAMN! I got some cute kids. As you can tell the photographer just loved Ry and took some goofy pictures of her, just because she was having so much fun w/ her.

The kids and the suitcase is my favorite and is going to be a 16 by 20 inch canvas so it looks like a painting. I told Mr. H we can look at it and just imagine they are leaving home.

we got them taken at Sams Club, they had some travelling road show type deal. They are so darn cute and will make great Mothers day presents for all the Grandparents.

My weekend plans...

Making these for Ry's teachers......Too freakin CUTE!!!!!! It is teacher appreciation week next week! Actual Teacher Appreciation Day is May 6.

http://skiptomylou.wordpress.com/2008/04/22/appreciation-7-days-a-week/

Fun in the sun, Karate and The Ostrich Farm

This last weekend we went to Tucson for a karate tournament.

We had a great weekend but not enough sleep. We finally got to hotel and all checked in after 10pm. We didn't leave until almost 7 after I had to run back into house 3 different times for stuff, then we stopped at McDonalds for dinner. We passed our turn off for hotel and had to turn around. Jerry came over and we hung out until after 2am.

We got up Saturday and walked around hotel looking for water slide and lazy river, had breakfast and then were headed back to room to put our suits on when Rylee got sick and puked on the edge of a gift shop and again in hallway. We had just eaten, it was hot outside and she was running around w/ her brother before hand. We rested in the room for awhile and then went to pool until after 3. We were going to try to get to zoo but when we got there it had just closed at 4. We ate some lunch and went to a comic book store Dave had seen a commercial for. Went back to hotel and I got a little nap and then ordered myself some room service because everybody else had the leftovers from lunch. We rented National Treasure at Ry's insistence and she lasted all of 10 minutes into movie before she fell asleep - we didn't start watching until 11pm.

Sunday morning we got up and went to tournament and Phillip actually showed and on time! It was quick tournament w/ only having the 4 events to go to and not nearly as many kids as the Phoenix one. We even had seating in the bleachers. Ry was getting upset that she wasn't getting any trophies, even though she gets a medal for every event. We all know that girl can punch, as our neighbors broken window can prove, but once she gets up there she just gets too shy or something. She finally did get a trophy, and a 1st place one at that for Fastest Kick. That is the same event she got 3rd place last time. I think we were out of there a little after noon. We went to lunch, showed Phillip the comic book store and headed home. Phillip took Taylor w/ him and we all left. I made Dave stop at Ostrich Farm on the way, and we went on the monster jeep ride and fed the animals. It was a nice 45 minute or so detour.

I'll post pics later, maybe.

Kids say the darndest things...

This morning Ry was grouchy, I know what a surprise....

She yelled at me - again another shocker...

I said "I don't know who you think you are young lady!!!" This was being said as she was slamming my bedroom door.

She opens back up my door and says "Oh yeah, You know exactly who I am, I am Rylee !!!"
and slammed my door again.

Can't argue w/ that!!!

What a tragedy

Yesterday on the way to spend Easter at my brother in laws house, got a call from one of Rys teachers that one of the kids Moms had passed away. I wasn't particularly close to this Mom but did talk to her and saw her at all the school functions. She was even at Ry's birthday party a few weeks ago.

She leaves behind a husband and 2 adorable children, a daughter Ry's age and a son that is 3.

Today was the saddest thing watching that poor little girl not want her Daddy to leave her at school. Of course, I am over emotional these days, but I just cried the whole way home and still am.

Those poor babies growing up w/o their Mommy, they are so young they may not even remember her.

Life is too short!!!

Love you!

Our look alike meter

MyHeritage: Look-alike Meter - Family pedigree -

4 Generations on the other side

In October I posted a pic of four generation on my dads side and today I show you my moms side and where Rylee got her pretty blue eyes. Theres my Mom , my , Ry and me. My Grandpa, Mom and 1 of his other kids that I have seen (he has like 10) all have the same blue eyes.

Family Fun Day

On Sunday it rained all day, so we all went bowling......

Updates

Just thought it was time to update some blogs.

Nothing really new and exciting to report. Getting fat. LOL.

Did my income taxes and e-filed yesterday, now just to figure out what to do w/ the refunds!

New Refrigerator? Better truck for Mr. H? Trip to Hawaii for just the two of us? Trip for the whole family somewhere? Pay on some Credit cards?

Well we have tentatively decided to get a new fridge and take ourselves to Hawaii, but not necessarily go on the cruise. Then again, I can think right now I'll be ok leaving a 2 month old baby home w/ Grama, but when it actually gets here, we don't really see that happening.

Mr. H job is going well, my job is still wonderful in the fact that it is still slow, so I work as little as possible. Unfortunately they won't let me just reduce my hours more on a permanent basis at this time. Which I think is lame since they are giving all this time away anyway.

Just planning Ry's 5th birthday party. I think it is going to be at Enchanted Island but I haven't confirmed yet. Doesn't look like Disneyland is going to happen this year for her birthday time like it has been. It stinks, but Mom and I decided we will just do something fun everyday that week after Ry gets out of school. Of course, this is going to come back and bite me in the ass later on in life when my adult daughter still wants a birthday week. Oh well, like mother like daughter!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Santa was good to us all this year and we had a great Christmas. My best gift was seeing the babys heartbeat 2 days after Christmas.

Grama went home yesterday, I have to go back to work Tuesday, maybe. I am going to go in tomorrow and sign up to be off on Tuesday, so we'll see. Mr H. and the boy will go play paintball w/ thier new fancy guns.

Nothing much else to report.

Have a wonderful, safe Happy New year. We'll be safe at home like we are every year - we're boring old parents.

BLECH!!!!!!

I just keep telling myself the heartburn and nausea are a good thing.

Anyway, nothing much here. Christmas is almost here - yay!!!! I am mostly done except for Ginger, who Dave drew for and my Mother in law. I already got her her gift from me for the name exchange but we, our family, will still be getting her more. Now to just wrap everything. Or wait until my Mom gets here on Thursday, then she can wrap it all. :)

Mr. H is off tomorrow and our fun filled day will be cleaning out the office. We're getting a daybed to go in here for Mommy when she is visiting. So we have to clear it all out and get rid of this pee soaked (thanks Dottie) carpet that is in here. I want to pick up bed tomorrow and have room all ready for when she arrives Thursday night. We also have Taylors winter band concert tomorrow night and then Ry's xmas program is on Wednesday.

I am getting off work a few hours early Tuesday and Thursday. I am only working a few hours Wednesday and I am off all day Friday. I am then off all of xmas week as well. Man it is going to suck when business picks up again and I am forced to work a full 9 hour day. I really need to put in to work less, permanently now that Mr. H is back to work and since they are allowing so much time off these days anyway. Then come September I'll have to change my hours to come in earlier, to work better w/ Ry who will be in kindergarten. Can't even believe it!!!!!!

That's about it!